I spend most of my time indoors. Especially when I'm by myself, I spend my time with my laptop, chilling. But, it was a rather nice day weather-wise last week. Well, the day that I chose to go outside and just take in nature, it was a sunny day. I went into the front yard and I just chilled in my car for an hour or two. I opened all my car doors, and it was just nice to be 'outside' with the sun beaming down onto me and the breeze, the wind, and hearing all of the life around me chirping away and such. It was really cool.
I mean, I haven't really done that ever. Like, properly been able to stay in one position by myself and just realise how awesome nature is. It was a cool experience. I'm going to do that more often, though. Just going outside daily (if I have no other matters to attend to such as work etc) and just take in all of nature, the sun, breeze and so on. Just as I wrote that, I heard birds chirping away while I'm writing this on my laptop, lol. So it's cool, just being with nature and being one with nature, I'm more aware now of other life around me. Whereas other times, I'd take no notice or not even realise that there is a bird chirping, or a dog barking.
And of course, sun offers vitamin D to me. And just generally being outdoors is healthy for my physical body and for myself generally. So, again, it's about balance. I wrote about balance in my previous blog post, but that was balance between physical socialisation and online socialisation. This is about balancing indoor activity with outdoor activity. Why should I stick to one or the other, and miss out on the benefits of the other activity? And I have used the excuse of there being 'not much to do' outdoors. But, when I look at that statement within an indoors perspective, there's not a whole lot to do indoors either. Lol, if I had no computer/no internet, I'd say the exact same thing, except about being indoors: 'there's nothing to do indoors'.
But, yeah, even if I am stationary outdoors, I'm benefiting my body by giving it the chance to take in the environment, nature, the sun, the animals, life. And slowly but surely becoming more aware of how awesome nature is, and other life around me - that is super cool.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deny myself the benefits of being outdoors and being within nature, life.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to allow excuses within myself of there being nothing to do outside to deter me from going outside and being outside.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not be aware of nature and be aware of life around me.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to see my computer as the only cool thing within my life, thus ignoring the awesome-ness of being outdoors.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not balance the two things out, balancing both indoor activity and balancing outdoor activity.
When and as I see myself holding and participating onto the excuse of there being nothing to do outdoors, I stop and breathe. I realise that I've created such an attachment to my computer, that I've forgotten and thus ignored what being outdoors and what being within nature provides for me and the benefits that being outdoors provides for me. Within this, I realise that even though I may be stationary when being outside, it is still a cool experience for myself to be with nature and feel the sun's beams upon me and chilling with other life outdoors.
I commit myself to both go outdoors, and go indoors, and to use both of these to assist myself within my process.
I commit myself to see, realise and understand the benefits of myself being outdoors and participating within nature, within life.
I commit myself to see, realise and understand that the more time that I spend outdoors in relation to other life, the more aware I become of other life, which is a cool lesson and knowing for me to understand and realise within myself - that awareness of other life around me.