So there is these washing machines in my house that are quite new. I’ve never used them before. Reasons were they were very small. They were too complicated to use. And I preferred washing in bulk, as in..in a bigger washing machine. Which is why I’ve either washed my clothes etc at a Laundromat or at another’s house/using their washing machine.
Anyway, it wasn’t working so well for me. For starters I had to pay to use the Laundromat as expected, but it was more expensive than I thought it was. Also, it required a certain payment which was somewhat of a hassle. I’d have to keep going to the bank to get the correct coins. And I could have kept using the washing machine at another’s house, but that was also ‘out of the way’ I thought. I also tried washing my clothes etc in the shower lol, which did not work out so well. It was difficult to get rid of excess water.
So I finally tried one of the 2 new washing machines. And it was SIMPLE. I was afraid that it was ‘too confusing.’ It’s one of those fancy looking ones. Like touch screen/panel etc. But I put in my clothes etc, put in the washing liquid and had a GOOD/PROPER look at the panels. I literally had to press ONE button to get it going. I pushed ONE button and it automatically set the temperature, some other settings and also told me how long it’d take. 14 minutes.
And..DONE. How surprising. I haven’t tried the other one yet which did look a bit more complicated, but hey, it’s interesting how things apparently ‘look’ complicated, but then when we do them/at least ATTEMPT to do them, we realise/make sense of it. In the moment/as the physical, we kind of put 2 and 2 together and come up with the solution. That is what I’ve found heaps in my life. Like the mind makes a big deal out of something which when physically altered/when one physically moves is actually so easy/simple to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do/use something because from an initial look as the MIND and so as ‘complex’ I didn’t want to try using something because I basically concluded that I could NOT operate it, even though I had known my other housemates could operate it.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to at least attempt/try something, because I see, realise and understand that as the physical/in the moment, things actually begin to make sense. Why? Because there’s at that point nothing ‘stopping’ me from going through with something. I realise here it’s also related to ‘force.’ Because here I knew that the other options were far from ideal and this was thus my best option/preferred option, so I sort of forced myself to do this. Force isn’t always a good thing, definitely not, but here I was thankful for it. It was a degree of force that made me FINALLY decide and attempt/try to use this washing machine.
And as I mentioned, in the moment it was the most basic thing I have ever used lol. More basic than the most basic toaster.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately see things as complicated/complex based on the amount of buttons, controls and technology.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that generally the newer the technology, the easier something will be to use/do.
I commit myself not to fear using technology and/or things with lots of buttons/controls.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate ‘a lot’ of something/things with complex and complicated.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire simple/basic things/use of things in my life.
When and as I see myself not wanting to attempt/try something because it is seemingly complex/complicated/involves too much technology, I stop and breathe. I realise that if I DON’T try something in the moment and give it a go in the moment/as the physical, then I’ll basically see it ‘in the distance’ and so as something that is just too difficult to use/do. It’s not until I get up close and personal and actually do something in the moment/as the method, that I can really gets hand on and really try to figure out how to do something.
So I commit myself to allow myself to get involved with things so that I can actually KNOW whether I genuinely can’t/don’t know how to do something OR if I can’t do something based on the mind/my associations with complexity/complications and buttons, panels, technology and them all being ‘too confusing.’
I commit myself to embrace past and presents technologies, because that way I learn how to do both things/in both worlds so to speak and obviously that can assist me for future things that I do/see/come into contact with in my life – so either way, whatever is ahead of me, I can use it to grow as a human and as necessary information for self and others.