Friday, 4 November 2016
Day 608 - Delaying the inevitable
This is but a single example in my life, but the way I handled it is the same for all future-things I didn't want to do.
So I've felt this way again recently to an extent.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can avoid/run away from the INEVITABLE.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to face myself as what comes up inside me in relation to dread, fear, worry, anxiety.
I commit myself to investigate my relationship to things and REMOVE the patterns that direct me to be fearful, worried, nervous, scared in relation to future things.
I commit myself not to 'enjoy' time before the activity as if cramming in as much enjoyment as possible to 'feel alive' and to 'feel happy/good' before 'getting to the shit stuff' that beholds me.
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