Saturday, 4 February 2017

Day 641 - Wants


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear living, enjoying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to confuse want with need.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I must only do things that are needed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dismiss wants because they are not needs.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to enjoy with what I have access to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself negatively within my mind for wanting my wants.

When and as I see myself wanting a want that is not a need and see myself going into self-judgment therefore because it’s not something I need, I stop and breathe. I realise that if I am to only have things I Need in my life, then technically that is just food, water, clothing and that is all – but despite this being a way of living, why not expand, why not enjoy with things I have access to, things in which I can still expand through/with, enjoy as moving my body, as thinking, as solving, as socialising?

So I commit myself to enjoy what I have access to, but of course I commit myself also to make sure my STARTING POINT of whatever it may be is one of stability, where I can say and do it based on something substantial/real/valid, and not something that is based on energetic wants/apparent needs as thoughts, as emotions, feelings, desires.

I commit myself to allow myself to enjoy what is here, and what I can get that is here, just not ‘with me’ currently but I can make here.

I commit myself to allow myself to embrace the best in things, whatever the thing is.

Desteni

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